That's Life P2 // Monday, 17 June 2024
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09:42 |
 Of course I updated after how many months hashahhahaha its so me. but anyway, before i go reminiscing my confused year of PKP and before I put a dot to that relationship story, I have to stated we broke up after 5 years and 8 months together, saying that I'm not beriya anymore so yeah. Anyway, i definitely forgot what to share about PKP like ??? what to tell there... I got back home Tawau after 12 days pkp started (18/3/2020) and we were forced to grad uncoolly and just online... May I say mehhhh sad i couldnt even get to experience internship in an office setting but then what to do right and there I go, jobless after grad like where to work and where to start... Apr 2021 I landed my first job as tuition teacher with the shittiest boss I ever got and an opportunist one like time PKP even she's earning as usual, but she went and cut off people's salary like pkp hit us so hard.. F her sumpah and she hated me i just knew... benda tuition so we chill right, and i may say i control my class at best, no student buat hal as much in my class but to her eyes im not that a good teacher and so i quit after 6 monts... yang buat bertahan is when my mom on rage bila pkp ketat balik, disuruh datang kerja and she doesnt wanna handle the hassle so she asked me to wfh so yeah yang lucu in one of her lectures to me she said "i know when someone rapat dgn their parents and its a good thing but kalau boleh janganlah sampai everything yang hal kerja pun cerita sama dorang" and I'm like? uhmmmmmm that'll be my decision? awknye tak rapat dgn your fam to luah anything, thats you lah, i just meluah jeee bukan I minta my parents handle our work problem for me lmao but yeah, then after quitting there, quite lama juga lah jobless but I took the opportunity to jual bundle sbb i was so into sweatshirt like with "premium" ridiculous price but then at first i just selling online but then adults in my house kinda pissed me off saying im too jobless, so being petty i started post sweatshirts to me to sell it just to not be said jobless kekekeke but then some (13 boxes) sweatshirts still with me here & no time to sell 'em back :") haihhh gotta take time to finish stock anyway, jump to after raya 2022, i landed my 2nd job on june and blegh all the dramas while i was working there but then thanks to my lovely colleagues (not all), i managed to stay for a year lebih AND this is the best part of my 2023 dum dum dum I WENT TO MY FIRST INTERNATIONAL TRIP WITHOUT MY PARENTS! like omgggg! it was so exciting! and this all thanks to my ATEEZ! which i will share about them in my next post hehehehe but this is where my kinda downfall started? like financially, to cut the dramatic suspense. I went too broke after the trip and I even finished up my mom's saving for me just for my collection. I'm actually hanging on rope currently speaking. Thankfully, my previous Dr from last workplace willing to hire me so I started to stabilise my savings and making up to my mom's saving for me again. Pray I won't be dead before that cause I'm trying to save for my next concert as well in this paying back journey T^T But I guess yeah, that's all in keeping up with my life till June 2024! See you in next post xx |
That's Life P1 // Thursday, 2 November 2023
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07:10 |
 I.... just mind blown, got 3 post before this one and wow I forgot all those feels you know. And like, banyaknya aku grow up omg! Feels like I want to recap about things and how life was these past 7 years, which ofc again 2/3 parts maybe idk hahahaha Fast forward to UPU choices, my uni doesn't let us choose other unis for degree unless it's swasta or awaknye ada cable hahaha So, since aku main-main time asasi, dak banyak kena offer with degree choices but my first was psychology IO and second was IT Engineer kekeke Big dream kan the second one Anyhow, fast forward to 2017... Ofc psychology accepted me sebab bukan banyak pun orang apply for it hahaha The lowest qualification needed but alas, I got good coursemate and that's actually sooo much better hehe Plussss met my best friend through the course and through kolej kediaman tbh hahaha Oh, sebelum lupa, sebab aku dak mau lepaskan kolej dalam and keluar duit for kolej luar/rumah sewa... I went and be sekretariat which is like ajk kolej kediaman lah join prog. etc. I mean it's not bad, I got to experience and learn a lot + met various of people ngl And ofc my lanjik ass, went to having crush on few people (flashback asasi days *bluegh*) but anyway first year went well, oh with French as my language still sad about that cause I would crush Korean but meh... Anyhow, going to 2018... You gotta believe it! I got a boyfriend lmao cringe But yeah, that happen early 2018... Damn i was like intoxicated with the relationship hhahahaha till the point met his fam? fuh, your girl moving fast hahahah It was funny cause I deadass went to search about engagement and wedding stuff HAAHAHHA beyond cringe gila ingat balik likee tgh high kah apa? high on love asskaksaksakskaask EWWW okay quit it.... but yeah, i had to write it down as it was my first year-long relationship and may I say the craziest!! First year was fine truly honeymoon, then enter sec year with his stress and constant picked on a fight with me begging not to break us up & blablabla... Big red flag i know but you know, when he's on his green flag, he can be the greenest so yeah + it was just thow 1 and a half year then final year on uni kinda chill on the fight, so okay lah then pkp happen and ldr from down there Enough about relationship, let's go to part 2 i wanna talk about PKP hahahaha |
Alhamdulillah! // Thursday, 1 September 2016
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 Assalamualaikum, hai! Lama dk update naaa And now! Almost 4 months in UMS! omg and 13th sept we will facing our final exam gosh im so freaking nervous since my midterm didn't went well oh im sorry ibu ayah huhuhu UMS is not bad and its better here I think. Easier to go home without purchasing expensive ticket hoho well since i live in Sabah hehe Im writing this in he morning gosh I was planning to do a little bit my bio tutorial but oh well terlari dari track kjap ahahahaha forgive me *how i wish i can insert emoji lol I felt liek to post something right now because our ICT class was about making wordpress so yeah The feels came hahahaha Anyway, have to end it here. Have to prepare myelf for class so sayonara ^.^)/ |
Redha // Thursday, 12 May 2016
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14:07 |
Assalamualaikum.. Bersua lagi di post ini hehehe hai. Oh yes I changed my blogskin.. again! ahahaha
Okay. Pasal redha ni sebenarnya saya mau cakap pasal pilihan universiti. Now, 13 Mei 2016, ada 3 hari lagi for keputusan upu keluar. Allahuakbar.. Nervous dia Allah ja yang tau. Sekarang ni cuma boleh doa doa and doa.
Bercakap tentang pilihan universiti ni, saya sebenarnya dari dulu lagi bertekad habis habisan masuk universiti pegi jauh jauh tapi bukanlah sampai luar negara kekeke cukup dapat belajar di semenanjung. Mau cuba persekitaran baru katanya kuikuikui Manatau dapat jumpa my bambayans family dekat sana. And sungguh, mau sambung belajar dekat semenanjung. Kemahuan ni.. ya Allah besar hati saya sekarang. Kalau boleh sekarang juga terbang ke sana hahaha ok over pula.
Sambung cerita, impian universiti awal tahun ni memang mau masuk uitm shah alam. huuuuu memang berbunga bunga hati mau masuk uitm hehe entah kenapa entah apa yang best dia tapi hati saya mau masuk uitm. And saya ni memang jenis orang yang ikut kata hati ngehehehe well, mau belajar with happiness kan. hati suka, saya pun sukalah lol
Dijadikan cerita, sekarang ni sebenarnya saya mula membaca buku yang saya beli bulan mac tempoh hari waktu bercuti di shah alam. Tahun ni kan dah saya memang berjinak dengan tarbiah tarbiah ni manatau dapat buka hati kuikuikui usaha dulu ye dak? Anyway, buku yang saya ni bertajuk Henshin Muslimah karya Kak Hassanah. As she said, she wrote the book to make the readers think and now saya baru dalam bab 2 hahaha iya lambat baca. Apa tidaknya handphone saya mengada minta belaian saya lol Ok teruskan. Adalah dalam bab1 disentuh bab ibu bapa. As we know, redha Allah datangya dari redha ibu bapa. You guys pun tau kan?
Apa kaitan henshin muslimah dengan universiti ni? Hahahahaha Sini saya kaitkan.. Sebenarnya ibu and ayah saya lebih prefer kalau saya beljar dalam Sabah ja. Lebih dekat, lebih senang puang katanya. Kalau dekat kl tu, dhlah jauh susah balik and kami ni bukanlah juga orng senang yang boleh beli tiket bila bila masa, macam tu lah. Tapi waktu tu saya masih tekad lagi dengan uitm saya.
Bila baca topik ibu bapa dalam henshin muslimah tu, masyaAllah.. Dikatakan kak hassanah ni call mak dia tanya khabar macam tu.. tiba tiba mak dia menangis rindukan anak dia yang berjuang habiskan belajar. Sbab time dia call ni sebenarnya malam mak dia cakap kenapa tk call? macam tulah.. nnti aku gambar uols baca kay? lol
Paituh terdetik lah dalam hati saya,
"aku ni anak tunggal. sedangkan orang yang ada adik beradik pun parents dia still rindukan dia apalagi aku ni nanti. Allahuakbar... mau belajar jauh jauh sedangkan pegi trip ke labuan jak tahun lalu call parents pun dak daa ingat mau main dengan kawan jak nanti sambung belajar ni lagi macam mana. sudahlah dk daa lagi ank ibu ayh ni hm nenek pun harap aku dapat yang dekat jak..."
Time berkata dengan hati ni lah aku tetiba dapat juga redhakan.. Menangis jugalah terpaksa lepaskan impian dan angan untuk belajar di semenanjung.. Kalau dapat dlm Sabah aku syukur, kalau ada rezeki tetiba dapat dekat semenanjung aku pun syukur. Kalau dapat dekat semenanjung satu jak aku akan sentiasa doa dengan Allah supaya aku ingat parents aku. Korban sikit 75 mins free call untuk call ibu ayah every single day. Dk dpt call pun mesej or whatsapp pun jadilah. Record voice sikit supaya dapat juga dorg dengar suara aku kekeke hmm yag penting aku dah redhakan di mana mana universiti aku dapat.
Kalau matriks? Allahuakbar... Andai di situ.. Kerja keras minta tolong dengan Allah supaya dapat pointer 3.8 and above supaya dapat masuk medic untuk degree. Dah aku ni yang pelajar yang top tidak, bawah sangat pun tidak. Huuuu fikir masa depan ni memang seram oh.
Oh Allah, I know You will give me the best even when I think its not good for me but actually its the best for me since You are the one that give me. So, please. Let this redha stay within me as I'm confident with You, Allah. I will always keep my faith on You, the Almighty Allah S.W.T. See you on next post.. Assalamualaikum. -Alifah- |
Psychology / psychiatrist? Part 1 // Tuesday, 10 May 2016
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12:32 |
Assalamualaikum... Sekali lagi kita bersua melalui post ini. Ber part pula tu. Well kalau dk br part alamat panjang tk habis baca nnti post ni ehehehe
Anyway, macam tajuk post saya kali ini, tajuk sendiri sudah cukup untuk menyatakan topik saya. Ya, memang. Saya masih berada di persimpangan. Kenapa saya persoalkan courses yang akan saya pilih sedangkan saya belum lagi menjejakkan kaki di mana-mana tempat pengajian pun? Asasi? Matriks? Malahan tingkatan 6 pun belum saya jejaki. Jadi mengapa saya terlalu bingung dengan course saya?
Baiklah, tbh kalau saya terangkan cerita pendek boleh jadi panjang ahahaha jadi saya terus kepada point. Dalam pilihan upu saya pilihan ke-4 saya adalah uia bidang sains kemanusiaan. Kawan saya cakap bidang ni akan menjurus kepada bidang psikologi. So, be like why not? lol Ok, memang runsing sampai ke saat akhir upu ditutup but oh well time tu memang dah determined dengan keputusan but sekarang mula terfikir balik sobs
Saya mahu kupaskan kenapa saya risau dengan pilihan saya ini sedangkan basically yang saya mau pelajari psikologi. Ahh.. Banyak saya risaukan. Saya memang begini, hendakkan kesenangan dalam benda yang saya lakukan sedangkan hakikatnya bidang pilihan saya memang masyaAllah susahnya hahahaha Ok, to the point.
Perbezaan psychology dan psychiatrist dari pandangan saya (tegur saya jika saya silap);
Psychology; More to counselling yang kita kebanyakan lihat sekarang tetapi psychology ni mempunyai banyak cawangannya which is psikologi sosial dan alam sekitar, tingkah laku / psikologi, psikologi klinikal, bimbingan dan kaunseling, Psychometry, psikologi industri, B.Ed, jenayah. Kaunseling eksperimen, haiwan psikologi dan lain-lain. Semua ini cawangan, walaupun berbeza akan masih interrelated. Tetapi orang-orang yang menemui psychologist or counselor ni, they are still minor case people. They just need guidance and way to solve their own problems and stress. For me, this sounds fun or rather interesting. Helping people you know. But here's the thing not like psychiatrist, psychologist cannot provide medicines. And untuk jadi psychologist ni in mlysia, lepas asasi/matriks pegi u ambik course psychology, dapat degree dah boleh kerja. Plus, sedikit yang saya tahu tentang psychology ni, ada cabang dia where we can make research as to you know the usual psychology.
Kalau orang yang suka ni, dia macam ni. Kalau orang lukis macam ni, orangnya macam ni. Haaa, yang macam tu. So kalau saya dijodohkan dengan psychology saya lebih pilih part research tu. Or do talks macam Aiman Amri~
He changed his course from engineering to psychology. Why? Can go to his post here -> Aiman Amri
Ok to next one, psychiatrist; Well, a psychiatrist mostly to counsel and curing. And the patient, ok repeat patient. Yes, psikiatri merawat pesakit. And those patients are mostly need to cure sebab dorang dah masuk major case. Stress and pressure terus jadi depress. And maybe you guys would know something call schizophrenia or identity disorder syndrome or ptsd right? Yes, these kind of patients that psychiatrist have to handle. Which mostly in mlysia, you would be call doktor gila or doktor sakit jiwa -_- And again, it pricks my interest. I want to see what is the limit for each people's brain? How the brain work for each people? Well, something like that. And yes, psychiatrist provide medicines for their patients. In Malaysia, if you want to be a psychiatrist, from asasi or matriks, masuk universiti ambik course medic. Habis degree and practical semua masuk balik universiti ambik master in Psikiatri. Well, last i check master dalam Malaysia ni wujud dekat upm, ums, uitm. last check tahun lalu kott ehehehe
Oh cukup untuk part 1 esok celoteh pasrt 2 saya upload kuikuikui
-Alifah ✌-
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